Continuation of Never Give Up Hope!

And The Journey Continues!

As you may know by now I am out of remission. In November of 2014 I had to go back to the hospital for some breathing issues.  They did their standard set of xrays of my chest, at that time they noted a very small growth on my left lobe of my lung, since it was so small the doctor didn't even mention it to me, they just gave me some meds. and sent me home. On March the 9th, 2015 my doctor was at my home and I became unresponsive for a short while so he sent me to the ER! Which you know I dislike...lol... they took more chest xrays and the prior spot had grown from 5.5cm to 54.8cm.  Yikes, not good to here in light of my Cancer history. They decided to hospitalize me thinking first it was pneumonia, then they thought it was TB and put me in a very small closed door room....not going to work with me, I can't deal with being in confined spaces.....AMA papers where are you? Yep, I signed myself out! Within the hour the ER nurse (nice lady), my family doctor and lung doctor all called me saying that I needed to go back and get a Cat Scan of my lung.  Okay already, I'll go get it done, while getting it set up I started coughing up blood again, back to xray.  This growth is now at 58.1cm....back in hospital this is on the 19th of March, that's a lot of growth in 10 days. After the CT Scan was done some dr. that I didn't know said I need to take you in for a surgical biopsy! I said "Stop right there Doctor" for one thing you don't know anything about my history or you would know I am not a surgery candidate for anything. Release me from here and I will follow up with my doctors. Next day my doc. set up a needle biopsy. The results came back at stage 3 Small Cell Carcinoma, so the journey continues.  I will update you as often as possible.  If you would like to assist towards the Fundraiser that is going on you can go to: http://www.gofundme.com/godgotit and donate.  Have a very Blessed day! 

Never Give Up Hope Ever!!!

The first thing I want to say to you is: Never Give Up Hope and Thank You to all of my friends who have been with me through out this rollercoaster journey this past 18 months.

A little over 18 months ago I was diagnosed with Mellinoma Cancer.  Having had previous battles with cancer I knew from the get go, that it was going to be an uphill battle!  I have stayed in prayer and have never lost my hope!  All I could to was place my Life in Gods hands and Trust him and the doctors to get me through it.

It was not always easy I won't lie to you and say it was, I became angry and even said to God, "why are you letting this happen to me? Do you call that Love?"  Then, when I settled down enough to see clearly again, I knew that this was just part of the journey of my life that he was allowing me to go through, so that He would be able to get the Glory through my testamony!

I know that without God I would not have made it through the treatments that I underwent.  If you are on my close friends list you know how sick I became. I even had to be hospitalized because my lungs even tried to shut down...God said NO!!!, and he opened the door to the use of a Bipap machine at night to keep me breathing!  My heart tried giving up...He said NO, you aren't taking her satan, She belongs to me! He has brought me through losing weight that is not the goal when you are battling cancer.

Yesturday was Valentines Day, and I went for my scheduled body scan.  Two and a half hours later my doctor called me back into see him, normally they just tell me to check back with them in 48 to 72 hours!  That is when they discuss my treatment options for the next series.  Today he said these magic words to me, you are in "remission"!  If I could have jumped out of this wheelchair without breaking my neck I would have...instead I started crying and saying thank you Lord!  Now he did say that remission simply means that there is no cancer cells present at this time.  He stressed that they would be doing periodic scans on me over the course of the next few years, because it can come back!

Right now I do have some infection going on and we are treating it with antibiotics and then I will be back to doing what God has blessed me with and that's running my business full-time!

Have I Missed My Goals?

Have I Missed My Goals?  Some would say yes, I say NO because I have done the things that needed to be done each day that I wake up.

I wake up and Thank God for another day to serve Him!  Then I ask him what I am to do today be it Ministry wise, health wise or business wise and I get it done. So, have I missed my goals, no I have not.

We make a list of goals usually about this time of year for the next year, without taking into consideration our daily family life. That is when self doubt starts creeping in and we start asking, have I missed my goals?

When starting our list of goals we need to also have a calendar handy and block out 90 day segments.
In each segment then break it down into weekly segments, work on one week at a time.  Schedule in God time, family time, personal time and then work time!  At the end of that week review the list of goals that you have accomplished and those that you were not able to accomplish, chances are that you got more done than you thought that you had.

If you did miss a couple don't beat yourself up just reevaluate how much you are trying to do in a day.  Remember, Rome was not built by humans in one day.

Enjoy life while you can as we only have one to live in human form!

I love you all!  Marilyn